Desire and Resistance

When we think about the Law of Attraction we often associate it with attracting something that we really want at a given period in our lives..money, a life partner, a big trip. But what we often don’t realize is that the Law of Attraction is actually the basis of our entire human experience. Your experience in life right now is simply a reflection of what you (your mind) are a vibrational match to, and it is the Law of Attraction that governs that phenomenon. Whether you are conscious of it or not everything you perceive as your external experience is a reflection your internal experience and it literally can’t be any other way. How could it? How could you possibly experience anything that is not a vibrational match to you in a given moment? 

I know you hear about the law of attraction all the time and it either excited you when you tried it and saw the cool results, or you got really depressed feeling like the shit show of a life you have right now is all your fault. Though both of those experiences are valid, that really is just the periphery, the surface stuff. Because those are thoughts. And just as a thought precedes action, thought is also preceded by something much more subtle, and more powerful... the stuff we need to pay attention to. 

That ‘stuff’ addresses what it is in our vibrational field that really causes the external vibrational match, whether pleasant or unpleasant, regardless of what the peripheral thoughts are. 

That stuff includes:

1. Your deepest Desires AND 
2. Your greatest Resistances. 

The root of every single thing in your life right now falls into one of these categories. And the irony is that from the Universe’s perspective they are the same thing!

Number 1 is probably the easier of the two to appreciate, especially if you feel driven toward a particular purpose in life and have a nice clear picture of your future. This is what you think about and work toward every day. You watch other people that inspire you and help to keep that dream alive. But I challenge you on this one... that purpose and this picture is not actually your deepest desire for yourself, but your Vision. We must ask: what is propelling that vision, pushing it forward every single day? What is that inner yearning inside you that never changes even when the vision takes on new shapes and forms? For example, I have many visions of myself teaching yoga, lecturing, writing a book, running a naturopathic clinic, making natural products, being a mom of ten little chicks :) etc etc. But the real DESIRE behind ALL of these visions is to connect and nurture unconditionally, to learn and to teach. The vision is simply the afterthought of that deepest-seated desire. The Desire rings like a tuning fork into the universe and what is returned to me are more and more opportunities that are a vibrational match to fulfilling that Desire. The Desire will then take the form of the vision once it is filtered through my lens of expectations, influences, culture, inspirations, ego etc etc. 

Honestly, trying to achieve anything else in life other than your deepest Desires is really just a waste of time! And an opportunity for some big life lessons, of course :)

But then.... dom dom dom...evil twin sister Number 2 comes along reminding us that she walks hand in hand with Desire. 

Aint it a bitch that what you resist is what you get?! The things you most want to never ever happen to you is what you get! Who said life is fair again?!

Here is the thing with resistance. Resistance and Desire actually occupy the same space in our sea of unconscious but our Desires are a little easier to access because they are more...well... pleasant...and we have been trained to deny the unpleasantries of life. So we have to do a little extra work here in this number two. 

To really identify your greatest Resistance in life follow where in life you feel most limited, what brings you most fear and guilt, and causes you to cast the biggest judgements upon yourself and others. In other words, follow your most discordant thoughts and emotions to their source and there you find your list of Resistances. Mine are: money, commitment and responsibility, and my spiritual development. 

They bring discord to us and are even termed “Resistances” because there is dissonance between what we say, think or feel we want and what is actually vibrating deeper behind that surface. The part of our unconscious that is convinced by past conditioning that it doesn’t deserve abundance, that it doesn’t have the capacity to be 100% responsible for decisions, or cannot achieve ultimate spiritual wellness. These subtler vibrations are what resonate and attract similar vibrations from the Universe which is why it is what we actually experience in our lives. 

For any given Concept you can only operate from the perspective of Resistance or Desire. So by operating from a place of Resistance you are automatically not operating from the place of deep Desire, thereby “resisting” that Desire. 

However I believe that things can move from the resistance category into the Desire category. They move by dying and by transforming into something completely different. Here we find Khepri again, our goddess of Death and Rebirth. But the transformation must be so deep and so real that it resonates at the deepest aspect of your Being. And then, by necessity, the Desire is all yours. 

Know this: You are never locked into your resistances. There is a constant dance between Desire and Resistance that we must play with ONLY when we have the courage to explore, identify and feel into them. Wake up my people we got work to do!!! Explore how to truly be a vibrational match to the life you want.

Special Big up to My Mama, Kelissa, Chronixx, Calico, Shevy and Teal Swaan for their inspiration behind this piece!!!

The journey continues...

Kimani